Beauty in Chaos

Where Is The Line?

September 2, 2008 – 10:06 pm
This is a question that many people are sick of hearing me ask, give an opinion on etc, etc, add nausea, ad nauseum. This is really being brought to light in a thread that is curently happening in the Nation. The thread is about what people are referring to as Jewish and Christian Wicca. My own thoughts are this: We have a Jewish God who stated in no uncertain terms "I'm top shit! Worship me, or I smite you!" A few people will try and misinterpret that part of the big ten with the statement "It says No Other Gods Before Me." Question one, folks: For a deity that is omniscient and omnipresent, isn't anywhere "before" him? Question two: You are aware of the difference in statement between Exodus 20:1-6 and Exodus 34:13-17, right? The first of these questions is a philosophical question based on the idea of a monotheistic deity who sees everything. ...

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FUCK living in fear.

September 2, 2008 – 9:38 pm
Ladies and gents, I define myself as a Wiccan because it has certain connotations and meanings that separates it from other faiths and practices. There are things that are Wiccan that are not found elsewhere, except where Wicca has borrowed it or where it has been borrowed from Wicca. You're probably wondering why I'm bringing this up. The answer is simple, because there are certain things that are NOT and NEVER will be Wiccan. Whine and bitch about how I'm limiting you all you want, but at the end of it all, things need limitations. Extremist Feminism, you know the kind. I'm talking about the kind of stance that treats all men as rapists in the making. There are those that cut off the divine masculine from Wicca on the grounds that it's oppressive. Which is worse though, stepping outside of yourself and working with things that you're uncomfortable with ...

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Confusion should get a kidney-punch

December 27, 2007 – 12:04 pm
I hate my head right now. Right now I am depressed and while I can't do anything about the problem, the issue won't go away. Mainly because I haven't even met the issue yet. Sounds a little weird? It should. I'll explain. Phoenix and I are happy together. This is the most true statement that I have ever made. That being said, we are acutely aware that there is someone missing. I myself am polyamorous by nature and Phoenix is bi-curious. A month or two ago she made the statement that there was someone missing from our relationship, something that I agreed with but never dared to say, because while I agreed with it, I am comfortable with where Phoenix and I are. Or so I thought. I've been denying this and then to have the woman I'm spending the rest of my life with come out and say the thing that I've ...

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People Shit Me To Tears….

December 21, 2007 – 11:59 am
I work at a BP Express in Toowoomba. I love this service station as the people that I work with are wonderful. However, this experience is tainted on a daily basis with people whoseem to want nothing more than to shit me to tears. This is entirely a tantrum at the fuckbakes that I have to deal with at work. It has sweet fuckall to do with PN, but I feel that I need to get this outta my system. I deal with a lot of people every day and it bothers me that there are so many that strike me as IDIOTS. Now, while I do have an elitist streak the size of France, I don't think that this comes into play nearly as much as I wish it did. The apparent inability to use either common sense or a little ingenuity if called for scares me as these people ...

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When Did We Become “CrazyFucks R Us”?

December 8, 2007 – 6:53 am
I'm sorry, but it needs to be asked. It almost seems like we are being bombarded with dopey bastards trying to start a "Holy War" with mainstream Christianity and it shits me for a few reasons. 1, The logic as to why these people are trying to pull this bullshit is based on inferiority complexes and some stupid desire to feel like they have some control. 2, There is little or no genuine historical accuracy at all in the initial rants. 3, They are talking about all of the hate and the evil of the Christians, lumping all of the Christians together in the same way as they accuse the Christians of doing to us. They call the Christians all kinds of names and generally behave in the same way as the worst kind of Evangelical Christonazi. When they show up here on Pagan Nation, I feel that I have to respond, as ...

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What’s Been Going On:

December 8, 2007 – 6:34 am
Alright. First up, I've gotten a job at a BP service station in Toowoomba. This makes me happy. This gives me cash to do stuff like buy books that I want for research. It also means that soon I'll be able to be a supporting member of this site. YAY!!! I lost internet for a little while but have it back, as you may be able to tell by the fact that you're reading my latest blog entry. I also have a tattoo on my arm. I'll see if I can add a picture. Hopefully this worked. If not, uhhhh.... I'll blame AJ. SWEET! It did work!!! It will be added to when my lady Phoenix and I are married.

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Worse Than Monsters: Emotional Vampires

October 16, 2007 – 3:37 am
When is a monster not a monster? The thread in the beginner's forum on Pagan Nation concerning Psychic Vampires has been resurrected and a lot of speculation has arisen considering numbers of "Psychic" vampires existing. Because of the rate of people feeling drained due to the presence of another, people assume that this phenomenon is a lot higher than it really is. It seems that people are confused about the difference between an emotional vampire and a psychic vampire. There is a very big difference. A psychic vampire can drain your energy through psychic means, often not even being noticed. The act of psychic vampirism and a person actually being a psychic vampire are two different things. Psychic vampirism is a form of energy draining. People are not the only things that get drained, though. Have you ever been in a place that seems to "revitalise' you, where you 'drink in' ...

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Terror, Friendship, and a heartfelt Thankyou.

September 23, 2007 – 4:19 am
I had one of the most terrifying experiences of my life a few nights ago. A few nights ago I was on PN when I received, for want of a better phrase, a distress call in my message box in PN. Answering it, Rebby and I took our discussion to MSN Messenger. While Rebby was talking to me, she began to describe what was happening to her. It sounded like a heart attack and I was terrified. I spent the next hour trying to convince her to get to a hpspital while simultaneously sending energy through the 'Net and looking up her symptoms and hoping that I was wrong. When Bheal got home, we performed a small ritual for healing and I'm still exhausted from that. While Rebby is okay at the moment, there was the terror that I was going to lose a friend. I couldn't handle that again. Earlier this ...

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Freya Aswynn

August 27, 2007 – 10:12 am
I recently spotted the details being brought up on Pagan Nation about Freya Aswynn and the many fingers being pointed at her concerning the child pornography that she reported. The person that was originally pegged as the collector of this filth is now pointing the finger at Freya and saying "She downloaded it to set me up!" To me it seems like a case of someone saying "They who smelt it, dealt it." So far, she has done nothing but the right thing and I will stand behind her.

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What’s been going on.

August 27, 2007 – 9:22 am
My last posts have been about what's been happening with this whole passing out and waking up on the floor thing. The reason has been discovered. In the middle of a main Brisbane mall on a Saturday night, around 2am, I had a rather nasty epileptic seizure. After going into savage mode, which was made quite hard by not remembering what had happened except that I was on the floor with my left arm and both legs in pain. I spent a few days in hospital and am now on meds to control the seizures. I no longer wake up on the floor. I haven't had a seizure. Now, as soon as I have the side effects to the meds dealt with, I'll be fine.

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